It’s been a year since everything happened and I cannot be more happier with where I am now. Last year it was all so different. I was too focused on trying to make everyone around me happy when I forgot about myself. This opened up my eyes and now I had to make a decision not only for myself but for others around me as well. The news would shock anyone but I did not know how to feel. So many emotions struck me all at once. It was like everything stopped and went in slow motion around me. Dropping completely to the ground and breaking down all my walls that have been guarded and protected. Thoughts racing in my mind, both positive and negative. Why me, why did this have to happen to me. So much people I have let down and will let down. No one understands the pain and emotion unless you have experienced it yourself. I now understand. In two minutes my whole life changed around me. Nothing was the same anymore and I did not know where to start. Who do I talk to? What do I do? How do I do it? I was so unsure at first so I began to try and try again but I was not getting the answers that I wanted. Instead it gave me the complete opposite. That night was filled with festivities and happiness, joy, and laughter. I spent it crying filled anger, regret, and complete and utter sadness. Overwhelming it might have seemed, but that word does not give it complete justice. So many things I could have changed to prevent shit from happening but due to choices I decided to make. Only I could change the outcome. No one knows how my life would be now except the one above and right now, I do not want to know what my life would have been. Instead I’ll keep going on and moving on. I’ll look back every now and then due to little memories like these but I won’t let it hold me back. Strength gets me through each day and if not, then I’ll make it happen.